Remember that last post? The one about how excited I get about school? I think I might feel that way until the night before kids come, because right now I'm super nervous. Fluttery stomach, jiggly legs nervous. And it's not getting better.
I can't say for certain that it's the start of school alone bringing this on. That definitely plays into the nerves, but I also think I'm just very hesitant about everything on my plate right now. I took stock the other day after a colleague made the following comment:
"You've made a mistake. You showed us that you're too competent, and now we lean on you."
On the one hand: YAY me! That's a great compliment. On the other hand: uh oh. One more thing on my list. Speaking of said list, let's take a look at everything I'm responsible for this semester:
1. 5 academic classes (three preps and three brand new curriculums)
2. 10 practicum students from the university (working with me on the writing center)
3. Freshman teaming (brand new endeavor)
4.Grad school (Young Adult Lit and an independent study)
5. Presenting at a conference in October
6. Taking care of my Nana
7. The writing center at my school
8. One field experience student from the university
9. Adviser to the class of 2012 at school
10. All of the other things grown ups take care of
Phew. No wonder I'm nervous. And I think writing that list made it worse. As much as I love being active and involved, and despite the fact that I will inevitably get all of this done, I'm overwhelmed right now. It's like this every year, and yet I always forget the struggle. Usually the end result overshadows this time of stress and adjustment.
So, now, about to head to an early bedtime, I want to say:
Happy first days to all! (Remember to enjoy and to remind yourself that the first days are the toughest - that's what I'll be doing)
So, Natalie,
ReplyDeleteIt is 12:18 and I am still up partly because I can't get the list in MY head to go away! Guess I should try your idea... WRITE it all down! A day in the life of a messed-up Literacy coach?? Anyway, just remember, they are all kids; we all put our pants on one leg at a time, and somehow, we will all make it through each day...together. The best part of your list, to me, is the team. Rely on all your team members, as they do you. We all bring something to the table that will be helpful in this year to come, so find it in each person and you will have a great year! Go Freshmen!!! ~Mel