All or nothing.

I don't do things half way. Work. Relationships. Life. Nothing in my life gets less than 100%. That's who I am, who I've always been, and who I'll always be. Most of the time, this particular quality serves me very well. Often, especially emotionally, this is cause for personal problems.

It's easy to do things all the way for work, or school, or whatever. It's not always easy to be the kid who goes all way with her emotions. It gives off the vibe that I'm a drama queen. Sometimes, I'll admit, I am. However, most of the time, I'm not trying to be dramatic. Most of the time, I'm just trying to get through.

If I'm angry, I get angry all the way. I want to break things or scream at the top of my lungs or both at the same time. I don't get kind of annoyed. I get pissed. When something makes me happy, I'm giddy. I jump up and down, clap my hands, grin, and celebrate. I get as excited over a nice card as most people would get if they found $100 on the ground. And, when I'm sad, I'm saaaaad. I cry. I mope. I get pessimistic. If I have a confrontation with a person at school (or a friend, or whomever), I cry. I get upset enough to sit in my room and let myself cry about it. I'm not ashamed of being an emotional person, but I do frustrate myself because of it.

I let things bug me longer than they should. Other people would be upset for an hour or two, and my day is ruined. And even though, once I'm over it, I'm usually over it, I carry these things with me and it's hard.

Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one in the world who gets so emotional. The only one who lets things affect me so easily, and to such a great extent. I'm proud of the fact that I don't accept less than my very best, but what is that going to cost me emotionally?