What is this feeling?

I spent the better part of today feeling a little empty. I can pinpoint why, too, which makes me feel a little better.

With school starting there are several things that I find myself thinking about and thus feeling kind of sad and ... empty.

1. I am returning school, which is exciting in many ways. However, the return to school also reminds me of the amazing people I was fortunate enough to work with this summer with the Maine Writing Project. For three weeks (four counting our virtual week), we talked and laughed and brainstormed and just generally had fun, all while becoming better teachers. The energy I felt from and with all of the Fellows was so motivating, and I'm missing that motivation as I prepare for students. I definitely still have some left from those weeks, but wish that I found the same kind of motivation and inspiration at my school.

2. While missing my MWP friends, my other friends are slowly leaving for school. Michelle, Tony, Coty, and Sarah have already left. Madi leaves next week. Aimee is home this year, which is definitely grrrrrreat. BUT, between her work/rehearsal schedule and my school schedule I don't know how often we'll get together.

And so ... empty. Not altogether lost, but a little empty. I just get so attached so quickly ... and that attachment often isn't reciprocated. The combination makes for some heartache for me, but I don't think I would change it. When I'm in the moment with people, it's totally worth it.